Issue 10 March 2011


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if there was some truth to it in connection to my addiction. Rather then continuing to suppress the desire to play video games, I asked myself instead, ‘What is the belief that I have been trying to suppress about this addiction?’


I realised that I did have a limiting belief–that my time was not my own. I felt that I was not in control of my time, my family was. As every parent knows, there is more than a grain of truth to the thought that your children control your life. I realised this belief was overwhelming me; it was frightening and depressing. I tried to suppress that thought by spending time playing video games, an activity which gave me a sense of control as I was expertly manipulating the shapes in the best possible way. This was the mastery of time that I wished I had in my own life. In truth, however, my obsessive game-playing was stealing creative and productive time from my day. The more I played, the more hopeless I felt at gaining any measure of self-discipline and the more ashamed I became of my behaviour. And, most importantly, the more energy I lost to this dark force that was feeding on my belief.


The belief I held that ‘the time was not my own’ was my Achilles’ heel, a weakness in my otherwise strong and competent self. While the literary origin of the term ‘Achilles’ heel’ usually refers to a physical vulnerability, the term can be applied to psychological, and even energetic, attributes or qualities that can lead to potentially deadly downfalls. Many shamanic and magical practices cite that an existing physical, emotional or energetic weakness is the only point of entry to invade someone’s energy field.


Just the notion that I might be feeding my energy to a dark force jolted me back into reality. Rather then suppressing my addiction to the game, I needed to acknowledge the blocked despair of not being in control of my life. Otherwise, I was blocking myself from my creative expression.


I changed the contract I had with myself that


allowed that force to link to my energy. The new contract said, ‘Yes, my time is not entirely my own, but not to such a degree as I think. As much as it is true that I am not entirely in control of my


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Most of us are familiar with dualities, such as the inherent simplicity and wisdom of yin and yang: the black and white feeding each into each other, so that darkness is in fact tied to the


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life because of my kids, I can still be in the world in a way that expresses my gifts. On my path for spiritual growth, my energy is not there for feeding the dark side. I want to take all the lost energy back so that I can move forward with my life.’


Then the impossible happened. My addiction to the video games was gone–almost instantly and without much effort. And now years later, the thought of playing video games still holds no appeal (although I do seem to have a pull towards liquor-filled dark chocolate!).


Less than six months after this energetic transformation, I was invited to teach a graduate course in energy awareness at the New England School of Acupuncture. One of the requirements was to have a course textbook, and that is how my Energetic Boundaries book was born. Part of its focus is on how we must treasure our truth and our reality, and allow ourselves the human failings–including those moments of despair. The reward is in the discovery of the origins of our behaviour that comes from a place of mindfulness and acceptance somewhere deep inside of us. The acceptance is both that there are forces that are vying for our energy and the recognition that we can take our energy back. This practice can free up so much otherwise ‘lost’ energy that you may be astounded.


More about Dark Forces and Addiction


Neither science nor alternative spirituality has truly accepted the reality that dark forces exist. However, consciousness about the nature of negative forces is growing. Carolyn Myss bluntly calls those forces demons, which sounds like an exaggeration, but actually may not be. Vampire books fill the bookstore shelves and are the subject of immensely popular TV shows and movies. Perhaps we ‘moderns’ are returning to the roots of the indigenous traditions that have always maintained that dark energy is as real as light energy.


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