up, take a shower, look at yourself for the very first time in the mirror and will not recognize yourself you will start trying to identify yourself and remember who you were before you died you will be able to remember it but will never remember what it felt like, no matter what memory it was you will only be able to see it as an outside spectator without any sensation towards them, nostalgia and melancholy will invade you and introduce you into the grieving stage, you will grieve who you once were and start assimilating your loss. Te acceptance stage will come in and hit you hard, you will get tired of pitying yourself and living off of memories, you will let go of the memories and who you were and start working on who you are going to become. Ten you reintroduce yourself to the world and let them get used to who you are now and mourn who you were before.


Tragedy doesn’t always come with a bright side after the tunnel, a moral of the story, an inspirational analogy, justice, or new found strength; actually in real life it almost never does. Trauma sometimes just hurts. Seeing someone down doesn’t mean you have to pick them back up. A fire sometimes is not yours to turn off. Time doesn’t cure it all but it sure does give you some distance to where it hurts less. Trauma sometimes is just trauma and no one can rebuild us from it but ourselves.


Lying Under the Covers In My Bed by Judy Hollins aka Zooly Do


I’m Just lying under the covers, in my Bed With my fluffy pillows under my head


Curled up like a Baby in a Crib Wondering about life, with closed eyelids


Tinking and resting in the Darkness under the Sheets Very comfortable I am, with my mind at peace


Now it’s time to get up and start my Day Lifting the covers off of my body, even though I want to still lay


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