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Being in the presence of someone who was just out of reach


made him very desirable, and the levels of chemistry I felt were extremely high. Not only was he ambiguous in the way he treated me, but


I could never predict when I would see him. His aloofness and unavailability on the weekends only added to the challenge of the chase. His unpredictability meant I was always ecstatic and exhilarated when he did want to spend time with me but inconsolable when he didn’t. Each time I got the opportunity to be in his company I would hang off his every word. I was intensely attracted, and my life became bent on


Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when dreams come true, there is life and joy. PROVERBS 13:12


devising ways to be in his presence. Spending hours talking, when I should have been studying, was worth the stress inevitably resulting. He was the man I wanted and was going to get. To be in this unstable state continuously was like going on


a long, painful but exciting journey and never really knowing if I would reach the end. Hope would drain out of me and be replaced with a deep feeling of disappointment, powerlessness and depression. An old saying goes, ‘Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when dreams come true, there is life and joy.’ Proverbs 13:12, NLT.* Hard, painful knots developed in my neck and shoulders. I


also began to suffer from headaches, insomnia, moodiness, lack * New Living Translation Bible


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